My condition right now?

i'm here at the hospital .

i'm so damn bored. I wanna share something about me

Yesterday , Mom told me that i should treat myself well , i must

take care *i noticed my mom's eyes , it's full of tears but she keeps on holding it*

I thought that she was happy co'z i graduated from highschool demo it's not the real reason.

I greeted her a HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY! and i kissed her on her cheeks.

My mom didn't say a word but she hugged me so tight.

i started to cry co'z her hug really feels like that was my last day living in this world.

I asked my mom what's wrong.

She told me everything.

"Nak , malala na U.T.I mo ..

sabi ng doctor pag di maagapan ung about jan baka magkaproblema ka sa kidney mo .. ida-dialysis ka..

anak ingatan mo sarili mo , wag mong sisihin ang sarili mo sa nangyayare sa pamilya naten .. Mag pagaling ka at tulungan mo sarili mo .. anak , mahal na mahal kita .. kayo ng kapatid mo.."

i really do cry a lot when my mom told me that she loves me .

I really don't wanna die. If ever i undergo in a dialysis i do have 40% or less chance to live longer .

i don't know if anyone who undergo dialysis really survive .

My mom told me none of them really do survive.

I don't wanna leave my mother , my father , and my stupid brother.

I LOVE MY FAMILY!

GOD!

FRIENDS!

PETS !

MY THINGS!

MY FANGIRLING!

J.E !

HEY SAY JUMP!

and ..

Ryosuke Yamada ♥

i just can't live without them ..

that's why i keep on breathing .. co'z YOU all still here beside me .. THANK YOU!

Don't worry minna ^^,

i'll be FINE <3